A year ago...

A year ago on the 28th May, Molly was feeling breathlessness and vomited some blackish stuff early in the morning. An ambulance was called to rush her to the hospital; it was her last trip to KK. And never did we expected that she was about to depart us.

At the hospital, Molly kept wanting to leave, she dreaded to go home. Until now after one year, my mum and i regreted of not being able to fulfilled her last wish; partly we were afraid that we might not be able to take care of her if anything happened when she is at home.
When the nurse attended to her, she told the nurse that she had a joke to tell my mum and up till today we are still wondering what was the joke that Molly wanted to say. In the hospital Molly was on drip, she was hooked to the oxygen tank that she tried to remove the mask many times. Her pain was unbearable, she was given morphine to lessen her pain. It hurted our heart to see her in that condition.

About 7plus in the evening, I fed Molly a packet of milk, that was the only food she had taken for the entire day. She could not pass urine for the whole day as her internal organs were failing on her. As her breathing got weaker every second, I prayed to god not to take her away so soon, to give her and us more time to be together. I wanted both of us to grow old together till our hair turn grey, to go shopping together, to gossip and to share our stupid jokes.

As time passed us by, we knew among ourselves in our dear heart that Molly was going to leave us anytime. I kept holding onto her hand tightly, gave her a kiss on her forehead and softly whispered, "Molly, you need not to have any worry, let go".

29th May 12:31am, Molly left peacefully.

She will stay in a special place in my heart and memories of us as sister will be lock inside of me forever. "Molly, having you as my sister is the only thing I will never regret even though we fought, we argued over many many things. Being able to be with you through your life journey was something I would cherish; till we meet again".